Fantastic article and it sounds a lot like me. One of my earliest inklings of finding the (my) real God were after smoking weed for a while. I remember sitting on my rooftop playing the guitar. I was staring into a beautiful sunset and felt such a yearning to understand how it could be so beautiful and why. I felt there was something about it or behind it that I was separated from. It was only after I tried LSD at Glastonbury in ‘93 that I started to realise that that separation was my perception. The meaning I was yearning to discover was that the SUNSET itself and its beauty to me was and is the meaning, and feeling and being aware that you’re connected to and at one with the world around you is the perception I was missing. As you alluded to, this massive change in perception also leads to the inevitable challenges of integrating the dark corners of existence into your conscience because of the realisation that everything is connected, which is difficult to accept and has certainly made me wonder numerous times in my life whether there’s a version of me that’s living in a universe without this evil shit going on and that I’m part of the problem by being here and knowing it! But eventually you get past that, realising that it’s up to each of us to navigate around and away from it and help others to do the same, so that it becomes insignificant in the grand scheme of things, where LOVE conquers always. I see Bitcoin the protocol as the discovery of something that links consciousness to the physical world, as it harnesses the will of people to physical energy by incentivising the use of energy in order to secure the network. It’s akin to discovering laws of physics. I often wonder if the reason theoretical physicists have so much trouble reconciling their theories is because they forget about conscious will. Even in the quantum age, still so few consider the LIFE FORCE in the universe, like how entropy only ever increases - what about all the organising we humans do and what about the vast array of ordered, structured plants and animals in the world? Is that an indication that everything descends into chaos? No, it’s the universe showing that its love never dies. If psychedelics taught me anything else, it’s that working through things, learning, developing and teaching is part of building the universe, however small a part that may seem, not just building yourself, because after all, we are inseparable parts of the universe we live in. Reading your story made my day - thank you ❤️
