GM - https://youtu.be/Vw5yDpSxfXc My dream last night had the soundtrack of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind or more so Beck - everybody's got to learn sometime - and a discussion about a movie that was a mash up of it and Sleepless in Seattle too. Waking up and playing it. This song always makes me cry. Now I gotta watch these two movies again and dig for the clues. It feels resonant to the #unrequitedlove wound I've been healing for decades that keeps popping up bringing a sprinkle of heartbreak and sadness that's never too far to unveil.

So I've been getting assisted by this teenager Jack the last few days, helping me apply an insulin shot to a fat cat I am caring for that turned out to be quite volatile and aggressive and frankly I have not felt safe approaching her. Jack has come in for a few days wearing all protective leather biker gear so we can ensure she stays alive. Finally today we get to talking a bit and I asked him about the little carpentry project he was doing with his coder dad a couple days ago. Turns out his dad is taking a sabbatical for a month and focusing on creative endeavours. He starts asking me what I do and I blur out a bunch of words to explain my direction and the field I am oriented in and looking to be involved in whether with my healing and spiritual guidance and community care or in other perhaps marketing, story telling and community organizing endevours. Hearing me he begins to mentions he is interning at his aunt's foundation where they are creating an open source library for disability resources. And he mentions his uncle and his job at a foundation focused on free speech which causes me to bring up Nostr. Then he says, "oh yeah and my dad's friend Kevin invented this thing called #Meshtastic". So I tell him about 's #bitchat and that we should test it out tomorrow. 🙃 Now I need to ensure I got the latest Android version ready and updated. What a 0-1 degree of separation reality if I only spoke to people more often. 🧡 And indeed that seems to be the calling I've been hearing lately. #network

Absolutely. Years ago I thought, if every politician drank a cup of Ayahuasca we'd be living in a whole other world.

Where?

Been communing with Niños Santos (sacred mushrooms) and Ayahuasca for 11 years now. Both are sweet allies, teachers and initiators that deeply inform my shamanic and spiritual healing work and energetic seership - essential parts of my role as a catalyst of transformation for others. #plantmedicine #plantallies #psilocybin #grandmothermedicine

I did dm you

Yeah, pretty cool views. Today particularly.

Shape shifter methrough the years...

Lame is lame

Oakland Hills

Really? I do hope so. It's pretty vague and elusive from where I am looking and I can barely make a move.

That's one good reason to come back for a visit.

Oh is it cracked? Or is that the reflection? It doesn't matter I haven't had this car for 7-8 years now.

I am just relieved right now that there is some force that pushing me to get outside to go on a walk as a coping mechanism to what's currently present. Moving my body, moving energy. #proofofwalk

That one time I was in my underwear in the kitchen and for whatever reason decided to take a #selfie of my reflection on the balcony door. Go figure.

GM #throwback 🕊️ #blessings

That one time I was accomplishing some fit body goals.

Did you know, this is the coldest summer (June/July) in the San Francisco bay area in the last 60-ish years? #goldengatebridge #overcast

I had to connect to wifi. It seems like my phone service was having poor reception.

That one time my friend Kaya Marie set me up for LIB. #throwback2018 #westcoastfestival

GM

#proofofwork Am I doing burpees? Did I count 21?

Just seeing this and jumped right in... But my 1min video is failing to upload both on primal and amethyst. Will try again in a bit.

What do I wanna do with my life? #mood

Probably should do one of those

That sounds awesome. Thank you, for your hard work and dedication.

Hmmm, so it appears that I don't understand it properly. Can you help me understand what happens and how is it that affecta my pretty dead engagement levels which many others seem to experience too?